Goodbye Facebook....

Through much thought and consideration, I have decided to delete or deactivate or do whatever Facebook does to delete my account. I don't want it anymore. It is a distraction from the many more important distractions that could distract me from doing my homework...like blogging! Which is totally better, I think. Plus, I am just tired of the seemingly endless status updates about nothing in particular.

On the whole, I am just bored with Facebook. It holds nothing for me anymore. And let me tell you, when I hit the deactivate account button I felt some heavy weight lifted from me. I felt the heavy ironclad social networking chains break from my ankles. I was free from Facebook and it's evasive look into my private person. Now they don't own my thoughts, my likes, my fears. I do, and I like that. As of now, it is just me and my keyboard and my words. I guess I now understand why my roommate doesn't have one.

So now I am just going to communicate with everyone through text, phone calls, face to face communication, this blog, and maybe through Google Plus (I still haven't figured it out yet.....not sure what I think). Maybe, without a Facebook, I will actually write on this blog more. That would be nice.

"Skyscaper" Running on Repeat

Ever since Demi Lovato (pictured below) went into rehab last year, I have longed her return. Her television show, Sonny with a Chance, was one of my favorite Disney obsessions. I was so devastated when she announced that she was quitting the show to focus on her music career. She was the show. Now it is just blah....but then I heard her new single. The first time I listen to it I was hooked. Her voice sends this rush of pure raw emotion through me. I feel her pains, her heartbreaks, her trials, and her successes. She has overcome so much, much like all of us have. But there is one thing that separates us from her. She publicly proclaimed she had a problem. The whole world knew. Think of the pressure and the embarrassment she must have felt when she had to pour out her most dark kept secrets to the millions of people on this earth. She put her career on the line and she did it with grace and bravery. I don't think I could have done what she did. To be forced into rehab is one thing, but to actually realize the severity of your problem and send yourself into rehab is something incredibly difficult and impressive.

Her new single, "Skyscraper", is equally impressive. She recorded it before she went into rehab so you can feel the raw emotion that was exploding through her. The first time I clicked the play button on her YouTube video I felt emotionally involved with everything she has gone through to get where she is today. It struck me hard that there are thousands of young girls and many others that are battling the same problems. They are depressed, self-loathing, bullied, anorexic, even bulimic. Before I heard this song, I was focused on me and my silly little problems. "Skyscraper" helped me to realize there are people out there that need help. I might not be the exact person to give the advice, but I can at least help in the effort of raising teen's self-worth everywhere.

So here I am.....speaking loud and clear to teens and young adults everywhere....People can hurt you with their words, their laughter, their actions and you can hurt yourself for believing in them, but hating yourself is not worth your time. Rise yourself up beyond them and their words and embrace the love that surrounds every part of your life. You might not see it clearly until you look. Also, forgive yourself and start over. If you need help, search for it. There are always people in your family, your friends, or in any other aspect of your life who would LOVE to help because they LOVE you!

I have always felt insecure about my weight because I am definitely not the skinniest girl on the block. I am far larger than what the world (or celebrities) deem as average. I have felt the pressure to be a size 4 or even a size 8, but fortunately I have family and friends that have always loved me even at the times I have felt my worse. They kept me from turning to drastic weight loss measures and to that I am eternally grateful. Today, I still have times where I curse my body's inability to be a perfect smooth canvas (probably at least once a day. Is that healthy?), but in the end I remember that nobody is perfect, not even the celebrities or the people who judge me. And it doesn't even matter what they think because I am trying my best to be more healthy and to love myself for all that I am.

So this is me saluting Demi Lovato for being an example to young people everywhere. For showing us that bravery really is admitting you are scared and need help. Please...listen to her song. She might just change your heart like she did mine.

Thanks Demi.

Finally....

Yes! The first post of my blog is finally here. After months of procrastinating, I have finally decided to bore you with my ordinary life. Well...that could probably be debated. Anyway, for all those reading my blog, which are few to none, as of right now, I am Beth and I own a mustard yellow coat, which I absolutely ADORE! I wear it almost everywhere during the winter for two reasons: I LOVE IT and I can't really afford anything else since I am a poor college student. And that is the reason for my blog name. Just thought you should know because it is probably kind of confusing.

As of right now, since it is summer, my coat is in the closet still in the plastic covering that the dry cleaner put it in in April. I almost feel like I have lost a best friend. But I still go inside my closet and hug it from time to time so I guess my withdrawals aren't too bad.

I have been home for about a month now after winter semester (ended in April) and a little three week walk around Ireland, England, and Paris. After all that excitement home seems dull. It is only my mom and me right now, since my dad is in Iraq. We do not do much, but being home has given me a lot to think about. Hopefully, I can more fully explain everything in my future posts.

For right now, I will leave you with Happy Fourth of July and a small reminder to take some time out of your festivities to thank and think about those that made the United States of America possible. To them and God, we should be eternally grateful.

Beth :)