Put Some Windex.

Pheww.....

This week has been exhausting.

Seriously. I think I forgot that school was supposed to be a lot of work.

Or that days seem to go by so quickly and before you know it, it is the day before your project is due and you are so behind and you are freaking out because you kind of forgot how exactly to do it and you want to do good because, of course, you want a good grade, but you also have so much more to do, plus you don't want to seem anti-social because you are never home.

Yeah....this first week has been a blur and a kick in the butt.

It's taught me that I need to be more focused, which might mean extended trips to the library.

Ick....that place is like a prison.

But mostly un-distracting so I guess thats a plus.

I just hope that this semester will be good. On wednesday, it seemed like was going to be awesome.

But then, I procrastinated.

I blame my accessibility to Netflix and David Tutera's awesome wedding planning skills.

And my friend, Sam.

But mostly, I just need to buckle down. I had too much fun during my off track. Not having to worry about multiple class with multiple homework assignment all going on at the same exact time. I was spoiled.

This day has been a great reliever though.

Going to church and feeling the spirit of God is something that I cannot live without.

It reminds me of what is truly important and that school is not the only reason that I am here in the Burg.

It also reminds me that I can be forgiven for all the things I have done wrong and that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are always there for me no matter how far from Them I think I have gone.

It is such a comfort. And hopefully through continuous scripture study, prayer, fasting, and temple attendance, I will get to a place where I feel his love and spirit at all times.

So in light of the Sabbath, I want to share a message with all of you. It is said with a spirit of comfort that gives me hope.

Have a blessed Sunday. 

Love you all. 

b.

Pears....and Tigers.

You know life is just going awesome when you get your official discount card to use where you work, two weeks before you quit.

Ohhhhh....how funny life is.

Made my morning quite enjoyable.

Have an awesome Labor Day. Hopefully it is sunny where you are.

b.

Our evil plan is working.

Wow....who would have thought that the past three months would go this fast.

It's already August. 

Four more weeks til school starts again. 

Two and a half months til I go to New York City. 

Six more months til I graduate. 

It just....It just....

It all just seems so surreal. I feel like I just left home. 

But I won't get ahead of myself. 

We'll save this thoughtful reverie for another post in like six months time. 

For now, let's stay in the present. If we don't, I think I might hyperventilate.

The present isn't too exciting though.

It consists of:

5-8 hour shifts 4-5 days a week.

Sleep.

Reading my scriptures.

Going on extensive walks, which are quite nice by the way. I wonder why I never took them before.

Hanging out with Sam, Nagila, Morwiah, and whoever else stops by.

Going to the Library to check out 8 books, but then end up taking them back two weeks later only having read one of them.

Going to DI (Deseret Industries -- equivalent of Goodwill if that rings a bell) and finding a super awesome pink sequin skirt that I have been looking for for ages.

Endless trips to Idaho Falls to go to work. Don't worry the Idaho landscape just gets more interesting the more you drive it.

Not.

Laughing and eating ice cream with Friends.

Watching Duck Dynasty.

Filling out job applications. Kind of. I am being a bit of a lazy bum in that ballpark.

Going to Utah to visit with the fam.

Celebrating my nephews birthday with a trip to the zoo.

Going to my first ever minor league baseball game. Pretty awesome I have to say. Didn't catch a ball though. Little bit of a let down.

Sleep.

Window online shopping for things that I really can't afford but don't worry.....most of those stay on the screen. Unfortunately.....

Lusting after landscapes, cities, mountains, and adventures that I wish to go on.

And a lot of praying because I have decided to change it up next semester. I have decided to move out of the apartment I have lived in for three years.

It doesn't seem like a big deal as I write it out to you.

I mean...I'm just moving, but I 'm leaving the place that has been my sanctuary for 1,095 days of the 8,030 days I have lived on this earth. When I say it like that it seems even more unimportant.

But for me, it is a big step, because I am leaving familiarity and branching a little bit into the unknown, which will be good for me.

That's what people say, right?

Here's to finding out if I believe them. :)

b.

"Let's Go Fly A Kite...."

Reason #12 to why I am perpetually single:

To put it simply, I stink at flirting.

Think of the most awful smell you can think of and that is how much I stink at flirting with the opposite sex.

Just picture it:

Me at my new job standing behind the cash register concentrating hard on not making a huge, life altering mistake.

The next person in line is a reasonably attractive guy.

He says, "Hi, Bethany."

Don't worry. He's not a creeper. I definitely wear a name tag.

And of course, I say hi back. Ask him how he is doing.

The usual cashier greeting.

Then he says, "Is there anyway you could give me a good person discount?"

I smiled and said the first thing that came to my mind.

I can't remember it exactly, but it was lame and lacked any wit.

But don't worry the embarrassment doesn't end there.

When I gave him the total, he said, "Hey, look. You did it."

And I was liked, "Oh...yeah. I did."

This was meant to come out in a very sarcastic tone, but I guess it came out dead serious.

And he said, "Really?"

All I could say back was "Yeah." over and over again.

It was like my mouth was overriding every command the brain was giving it to just not say anything anymore.

Yeah....it is a chronic problem.

I've tried to get medication for it, but apparently there is no cure.

When I told Moriah the story, she said that she hopes I will find someone who will think it is endearing.

Hah!

That is just too funny.

b.

His name is Gaylord. That's Hot. He's Seven. Oh.....

So I was watching "The Voice" the other night....

You know the show.

With the singers.

And the guy who is annoyingly charismatic.

And the country duo that is AWESOME.

And, of course, Blake, Adam, Usher, and Shakira.

Yeah...it is a recent find.

Anyway....back to the meat of the post.

During the commercial break, this ad came up.

And I just died.



I mean.....

It's just....

Hahaha....

It's just awesome.

Charmin...you have my complete loyalty.

b.

Is this the Forehead of Security?

In light of my new look on life...

I decided it was adventure time.

So I took a week off from doing nothing and went home.

I know that doesn't seem quite adventurous, but sometimes when you are held up in one place for five months, a change of scene seems nice.

Even if it is a somewhat familiar one.

But before I headed home, my first stop was this cool kid's house.

We hit up the backyard. Played some B-ball. Jumped on a wet trampoline. 

Yeppers...it was delightful.

Second stop: Home.

Where we visited the other cool kids' house.

(Sorry.....forgot to take a picture).

Then watched as this cool kid was baptized.

Then after stuffing ourselves with Mongolian food and then shopping and then sleep and then church, we all congregated at Grandma's house. 

For a barbecue. And other shenanigans.

Like unearthing worms.

Eating awesome food. 

Playing dress-up.

Playing endless rounds of What-If and She Said, He said. Oh....the laughs.

And enjoying some of the best company that exists on this planet.

Then came Good-bye and the Road Trip back. 

Filled with Awesomeness as seen above.

And snow!

 In May. 

Why not, right?

b.

Stuffed has two syllables. Stuff-ed. I DON'T LIKE THAT.

There are some days where one is content.

With where they are. 

What they are doing. 

Who they are. 

And where they are going. 

But there are some days where one longs for more. 

Longs for change. 

For travel. 

For adventure. 

For uncertainty. 

For scenery that is unknown and undiscovered. 

And it's been one of those weeks.

Although I know that I am blessed to be here, sometimes I wish I could just go.

So right now, I am going to promise myself something,

To NEVER stop dreaming.

To NEVER give up with anything I believe in.

To NEVER not feel good enough to be on this earth.

To NEVER let my dreams be belittled.

To NEVER forget the opportunities are limitless.

To NEVER EVER live life with lost adventures.





I want to seize every moment and live it like it can never be lived again.

I want to find the love that exists all around the world.

I want to cherish all the beauty the Lord has provided us.

I want to live and honor those who have gone before me and Those who have created me.

For I never want to look back at my life and see a stationary person.

I want to see a moving, improving, giving, loving, forgiving, dreaming person.

Someone who someday can inspire my children.

To live.

b.